Biology this year has been a truly unique experience and for
it I count my blessings. Count them one by one, as they come flying in through
the window fluttering then falling towards my feet. My eyes are not mine
anymore but something filled with new wonder and knowledge and once mundane
sights do not go unnoticed now. Such as when I stand to fill a glass of water
from my fridge I cannot help but look at the piece of "Irish Moss" sitting in the pot. And it always looks so
dry and I remember "swimming sperm" and I pour that poor Irish man some water.
Other
times I think of the angler fish and other terrifying deep sea creature and I
wonder what I would see if I could see what I`m not seeing! If I could only
take in all the complex layers of horrors that lie just beyond my range of
sight. I would be terrified! I would much rather face anything from space
before I find out what at the bottom of our own ocean. And I`m not sure what I
is about Jellyfish but I`ve become oddly mesmerized by them this semester and
now I know that if there is ever a thin, semantic line that lies between
beautiful and weird, that line would be covered in Jellyfish.
I don’t
see pollen anymore, I see flying sperm. And the small craft cones now suddenly
look very feminine with lips and sweet voices. I would have never thought the
very things I covered in glitter at the age of 8 would be female. I look at plants
with a new found wonder, they`re deadly like much of the world but beautiful like
everything else as well. And everything can be questioned. Be curious and ask
questions. Even if you lie in bed one day and forget all that’s true in the
world. Even if the stars look like mysterious lights overhead while you pretend
to sleep and even if you`ve convinced yourself that the moon is just a collective
hallucination shared by millions. Ask questions. Because when all is said and
done you may choose to not be certain of anything at all and if that’s the case
then you just have to be passionately curious about the world around you.
I look
at the world with awe. It`s beautiful and it`s beauty radiates everywhere. And
although we all know the inevitable and that somewhere over the rainbow is not
a pot of gold but the cold empty void of space, we choose to see its beauty
instead of the vast and indifference of space. Because we are immeasurably small
in this vast cosmic wonder, but this biology class has made me curious, ask
questions, and follow my heart. Because in the end, when it comes to this Earth
and all its inhabitants I have to agree with a poet I know when he says that
you have to care about the world, because it doesn`t care about you.
